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狼狽，我的心情好狼狽。

變得很想逃
變得很沮喪
變得很陌生
變得很不自在
變得很不願意

剪完編排，說穿了只是一個敷衍
開完社研，我覺得和期待相比很有距離
坐著打字，我的桌面還是跟思緒一樣一團亂

不想再抵抗了...
但我接受不了這樣的自己，真的無法。

按下暫停鍵。

真想趕快去聽cheer's concert...

最近總是靜不下心來做很多的事情，想拋開工作，出去好好的玩。有時候不是不想做事或是失去熱情，只是需要換個新的心情或思緒，然後再重新出發。

weakness

Everytime I try to talk about my problems with the counsler, it is difficult to hide my tears when speaking of my sorrow even if I didn't know her before. I think that is a proof that I can't face my own weakness. I never do that successfully...

It's me. It's part of me that people do not know.

Althought I have some problems that I can't solve myself, life is going on. I don't want to but I ignore them most of time. Things happen like that, what I could try to do is unknow. But however, I don't want to give up for a hope in mind that everything could be better.

If I want to control or change something that I can't indeed, I might often feel bad. (Silly...I exactly know it's impossible.) Unluckily, I don't know who can hlpe me and the fact make me feel bad also.

記住了。

那文字讓我入神，一字一句...是我太久沒有閱讀，還是很久沒遇見很想一直記得的文章或很久沒有被哪一種執著的坦率的熱情的深刻的情緒打動?!

好想一直擁有那個瞬間，我真貪心...