December 29, 2007

尋求進步





和這群孩子一同畫畫的生活,到今天算是一個段落。跟喜歡畫畫的小孩在一起,本身就是一種樂趣;對於引起他們的動機和興趣不用花太多的時間,我期待的是提供他們更多面向的表現方式讓他們對於繪畫這件事更加喜歡。

我覺得當美術老師,很好;我最喜歡的是看見學生拿著他的作品到我面前問我說:老師我這樣可以嗎?或是學生有時什麼也不說,用一種接近企求的眼神看著你,希望你給他一些回饋;通常我會先讚美他的優點再告訴他可以加強的部份,我肯定每一個孩子在藝術上的天份與表現,然後順著他們的畫面,讓它更好。

從大四試教到現在,我一直對國中生有ㄧ種莫名的排拒,總覺得國中生叛逆難教但這些日子和這群可愛的孩子相處,發現教他們和教高中生感覺大不同,但我一樣快樂。在不同的教學場域和針對不同的教學對象,我一直在尋求一個和學生相處最適當的方法,國小、國中、高中生該怎麼引導、怎麼設計課堂,我想應該可以再細緻一點。

我樂於在這些經驗中練習、成長,我很珍惜,也因為這些經驗告訴我我應該要更進步。今天坐公車的路上,我回顧著這學期,實在有很多地方可以再用心一點,很多事情就算是有了經驗也要好好的對待,每個細節每個步驟都應該要細心的思索過,應該要更加謹慎的對待自己的工作,我是這麼檢討的,我也應該如此實行。

December 28, 2007

實習日記 Dec.27







今天忙著拍照、剪接;小熊是我,實習短片還在努力當中...班會跟學生說了一些話,也跟他們分享張忠謀『大學生要做的十一件事』,希望對他們有好的影響,總會預想很快就無法陪伴他們早自習、開班會,也看不見他們上素描的下課時間,到新北的走廊玩滑板車那可愛的模樣...

四點半,振傑和若雅教案比賽得獎邀請我去實習輔導組一起吃蛋糕,他們說:『當然會想到妳啊。』

五點,準備下班了;1201一群男生進來辦公室,說是要拿他們家政課做的小餅乾給我吃請我評分,這些大男孩手也還真巧,餅乾很細緻,給他們97分後跟他們拍了照說掰掰,又來了另外一組人,他們這時候會想起美術老師也真神奇!1201是我教五個男生班裡面我最喜歡的一班,上課好投入做作品也是,而且是對美感和色彩感受最敏銳的一班,好優秀! 教學觀摩那一天剛好上這班,真讓我覺得:有你們真好 : )

December 25, 2007

實習日記 Dec.25* Christmas!

今天早晨,天氣陰,沒有全校升旗,利用這個時間在班上帶了時間規劃的小活動,讓學生們看看自己怎麼利用時間、怎麼浪費時間,為自己訂下一個短期目標,用心去達成;八點鐘聲一響,幾個貼心的孩子送了糖兒到我面前跟我說聖誕快樂,每次看到他們的笑容就覺得當老師真的是一件很令人開心的事情,從昨天一到學校看見煒甯放在我桌上的starbucks蛋糕,到今天早上大家此起彼落高興的對我說聖誕快樂,到我午休收到彥淳的卡片那一個時刻,我真的心頭一陣溫馨,82的孩子不像老師們想的這麼頑劣,他們仍然是一群天真的孩子,就像美術班比較漫不經心不受拘束那樣,但本質上還是可愛:)



耶誕夜晚,像去年一般,今年還是很開心,一大早便穿著裙子出門期待晚餐的到來,我竟然開心過了頭,完全忘了愛吃鬼耶誕party的邀約,在公車上遇見亮晶晶才赫然想起,今天真的美好。明天要剪去長髮,用新的心情來迎接我應該要好好努力的2008;晴兒妳也是,要開心。

December 22, 2007

卡片摘


  • 詢問未來,不如踏實的走過現在每一步。

  • 隨時養成『面對』的習慣。

  • 在窄路上猶可,寬容,為了『讓』。

  • 阻力產生的時候,要當作另一頁閱讀。

  • 不該在冷漠的世俗社會中,流離,失所。

  • 不要讓不愉快的記憶,反鎖。笑納,這一片風景,讓日子好好過。

  • 我們喜於像流星雨,祈願。是對瞬間逝去的不捨?還是對未知遠方的一種渴望?

  • 落日煮紅了向晚的天空,心能垂釣什麼?在大風大浪中,沒有機會顧影自憐。

  • 擔當,歲月,樂於。挑起日子裡,所有的挑戰與歡喜。

  • 只是一種等待的樣子是不夠的,得靠自己的力量站起來。

  • 天這麼高、日子那麼長,永恆沒有辦法丈量。

每次去誠品總會發現好東西,我愛的地方。

December 21, 2007

實習日記 Dec.21

I'm really tired right after I get back, but there are still something special to write down today. Talking about our Movie study group on Friday, Teacher Wen shares his new vedio teaching with us. He is really humerous and inspiring teacher and it's not difficult to imagine that he is so popular at Jianguo High School. As knowing his film making lesson, he renews his strategy again and again after he found anything wrong during his classes. Besides, He never forget to be a good teacher so he do try hard to keep forward. It is very typical, however, I will say what I learned from his eyes is nothing but passion. I also see the same thing while listening his trip to Taitung with his wife and two lovely sons. It's pretty attractive for me to see the smile on his face when he plays his role as a father on the stage. Of course, he is really a nice father as well.

At Dinner time, I told uncle my problem which bother me for a long long while. Though I need to find the solution myself but I've realized that I have to be more purposeful. The goal is surely not easy to reach, so try best to overcome it instead of fooling around. Decision making is always quiet hard for me...really hard. After Dinner, I went eslite bookstore in front of NTU to join the lecture talking about the masterpieces of Ang Lee, the speaker is an associate professor at Shih Hsin U. How wonderful to hear her point of view about Ang Lee's films. I hope maybe I would have chance to attend her class some day. In addition, I find a tiny great picture book there tonight, too.

I called back to Dad at ten, I felt so sorry to disappoind you. I don't want to do that but I really can't do the job that you wish me to.

December 20, 2007

實習日記 Dec.20

有ㄧ些失望。從小被大人教會的禮貌、人與人相處該有的應對進退、什麼時候該說謝謝什麼時候該說抱歉,為什麼這些大人一點也不懂;有人買點心送到你面前還挑剔,把別人的付出視為理所當然又更加索求?頓時心中充滿疑惑與不齒,雖然我只是個旁觀者,仍然不舒服到極點...

有ㄧ些不捨。今天開班會,這群可愛的小鬼頭知道我一月就要離開後一陣哀嚎,剎那間我真也不知如何回應;一群渴望有導師但曾經失落過的孩子們,但我覺得遇見了一個給你們很多自由的導師,也許是老天給你們來附中出的另一項功課,等待你們去練習。

有ㄧ些溫暖。晚上提前慶祝耶誕節去了,手中握著小雪花卡片的感覺真好 :)

December 19, 2007

實習日記 Dec.19


給1182的吉他寶寶:)你們總是認真的在南川練著吉他,想必因為這旋律生活美好了許多,加油喔。小糖兒送你們! --立璇老師

吉他社最近要成發,班上那群無時無刻都想彈談吉他的小鬼們更是勤快的練習,今天回家的晚,在辦公室做了小卡片釘上了耶誕棒棒糖,一個一個送給他們;我一直覺得這些孩子的笑容總能帶給我很多的溫暖,沒有他們,我真的也許快要忘了這個附中年紀的純真與可愛;陪他們早自習成了我每天可以六點就起床的動力,陪他們考考試、看看書、說說笑,和他們分享生活的點滴我真的快樂;就像他們捨不得一樣,其實我也想這樣陪著他們三年。

野獸班的美術課也進行實作部份了,看著這些大男生細細的經營畫面、思考構圖,倒也給了我很多正增強,孔版作品製版對他們來說也許並不困難,但他們的細膩和專注程度超出我想像,很期待他們印出來的成品;上普通班的課,我不強求學生能夠熱愛美術極度投入,而是希望能讓他們知道自己也可以做出很棒的作品,進而喜歡自己的作品,那便足夠。上男生班的課和女生班大大不同,女生乖巧的可以,男生則是活潑到不行,很多時候他們的反應讓我當場噗吃笑出來,很有趣!

今天參觀教甄模擬,郭青蘭老師說了一席讓我印象深刻的話:『你們要問問你們自己你的初衷是什麼?為什麼我們在茫茫人海的報考者當中要選擇你?為什麼非你不可?』是啊,如果你不夠好,為什麼非你不可?簽退時候看到季桓要來實習的資料,直被惠雲姐誇讚,從我認識季桓開始,那應該是他請我去花友會上課的兩三年前,從那時到社研成為工作夥伴,他不僅能力好,也都一直很用心在每一件事情上,我呢?有每一件事情都用心了嗎?

阿姨前些日子傳給我一個本來沒有特別喜歡,但卻有好多人都喜歡的繪本故事The Missing Piece,但那天晚上看著看著卻也有ㄧ點點的感同身受,好像曉得了每個人都有那麼一塊失落的一角,不需要苦苦地追尋;我也想起爺爺的話,他對我說:不要執著。


December 04, 2007

2007 Taipei Golden Horse Film Festival


On the very first moment that I got the schedule book in hand, it didn't really attract me a lot. I just glanced those short introductions for each films and give some marks on very few of them. However, I found out that it's a amazing world especially when I hold my schedule book with the signature of HALLAM FOE's director David Mackenzie tonight. It's really a wonderfully directed movie : )


The best part of this film is the illustratons on the both beginning and ending parts, it gives a close comparison to Hallam's personality I think. Though the movie told clearly about how a young man get lost or have some difficulty to show his own emotions which seems not really pretty, but the lovely illustration also make audiences know Hallam's innocence and artlessness. And the music is what I impressed most as well, they expreesed each sence perfectly. No wonder it's the winner of Best Film Music in 2007 Berlin international film festival.

How lucky to hear David talk about his masterpiece. My another favorite film is To Each His Own Cinema. I'm also satisfied with these nice films in GoldenHorse this year.