March 25, 2009

Tears and Rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing

How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold
How I wish I had screamed out loud
Instead I've found no meaning

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind
Hold memory close at hand, help me understand the years
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell
How I wish I would save my soul. I'm so cold from fear

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble
Far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain

Tears and Rain.

Tears and Rain.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain

--James Blunt


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心中用信念一層層小心築起的城牆一再崩解
用緩慢的速度向上重建,但遠抵擋不了摧毀的力量
曾經也許可以相互抗衡,但現在已經能量盡失...

妳沒有自己想像中的堅強,也不想再埋藏自己的脆弱

有時候,也許只需要一片極大的空白,來容納突然湧現的傷悲

傷悲就算有地方可以歇腳了;那難題,怎麼辦呢?

March 18, 2009

幾則簡訊

週二早上,依然受不了呂老伯破碎詭異的研究法課堂對話,我埋首在亮晶晶的iPod遊戲中不亦樂乎,頓時覺得無聊課堂有iPod實在是太好了,所以郁婷媽媽簡訊到了許久我才發現它...

徐老師:郁婷推薦和申請都沒有通過,可能出在英文沒考好,現只好努力拼指考,謝謝老師這段時間給予郁婷的指導,受益良多。

心中錯愕一陣,想著郁婷知道這個消息會有多麼失落。她是我在學測時因緣際會接到的家教,這一個月來密集上了素描水彩創意鑑賞,上周末花了很多時間構思作品集的種種細節;郁婷是個很認真的女孩,我交代的功課她都牢牢記住,並在下週上課時滔滔不絕地跟我討論她這週蒐集到的資料,或是她畫畫的種種問題等;我感覺的到她是真的對走上藝術這條路抱持很多期待;學測成績不算差,術科成績算是很好了,但第一階段英文不好的確是很吃緊。思緒繞了一圈,我回了這封短訊...

我知道了,那便全力衝刺指考!郁婷學習態度非常積極,這是陪伴她奮鬥最好的能量,我讚賞她這段時間的努力並致上我的樂觀與祝福!

我在考慮是不是要再傳個簡訊給鈺婷,給她多一些些鼓勵,但我又害怕更多的安慰會帶給她更多自己挫敗的提醒,但詠春5號跟我說她懂那種感覺要我一定要傳,所以今天我試著打了一段...

訂好目標便全力衝刺,可以免除蠟燭兩頭燒的處境:) 把眼光放在七月或更遠的未來,回頭看我們這段時間的努力,絕對不是徒然,給你千萬個祝福:)

我按下發送,希望能給她一點安慰。一會兒,我收到郁婷的回覆....

謝謝老師...跟妳上課這段期間學了很多,希望以後還能有機會。對藝術的熱忱似乎還是無法抵抗學科成績的現實。

她的後一句話,讓我心疼;我不希望她因為這次挫折抹煞了對藝術追尋的動力,當過美術老師的人都曉得,能夠培養出對藝術有興趣的孩子是多麼不容易,但卻是多麼令人欣喜的一件事;我相信她在不久將來的成功是值得期待的,於是我回...

學藝術的孩子通常感知敏銳聰明如妳:) 很喜歡妳的樂觀積極,似乎看見從前的我...學科界線別看成現實而是上天給妳的練習,通過考驗大學依然揮灑自如!

March 15, 2009

朋友說


我們可以不用對自己說謊沒有關係,某一件事情的確讓你很難過,不用假裝你其實沒有受傷。



全都有

你有沒有再怎麼樣都無力解決的事情?
你有沒有真的真心堅持過自己的夢想?
你有沒有在光鮮亮麗的背後淚流不止?
你有沒有反覆來回掙扎只為了一個決定?
你有沒有遇見可以一筆勾銷所有快樂的殺傷力?
你有沒有真的體會有些關只能一個人過有些路只能一個人走?

會疲倦。
會難過。
會灰心。

我只是想要好好的向前走...

可不可以不要裹足不前?可不可以給我多一點支持?

March 11, 2009

環島剪影



對我來說,擁有知己的美好是超過一片栗子千層蛋糕的幸福。

三月九日‧台南

這天能和1020 dear sis ching碰面可是我期待好久的事情,台南這個地方我不熟,但存在著ching載著我在大街上說說笑笑的影子,今天也是一樣,感覺又更好了,這次相見總算可以彌補一些去年耶誕單身聚會無法見面的遺憾...



ching很貼心的帶我到我嚮往已久的深藍咖啡,面對琳瑯滿目的千層蛋糕,我自然是選了我最愛的栗子口味,ching點了摩卡,我們都喜歡我們的選擇;我開始把累積好久想要對ching說的話一件一件的分享著,蛋糕的美味和相聚的喜悅一起品嚐。


三月十一‧高雄

今天科技老師犧牲念書時間帶美術老師悠遊西子灣,吃海之冰,真的是太開心了。還記得去年考教甄,科技老師真的是給了我很多鼓勵,讓我可以堅信一些什麼然後繼續努力;期待今年他的好消息,還有和小芳子拜訪小琉球的計畫實現。


好久沒有聞到海風的味道了,好清閒好開闊,如果要我選擇住山邊還是海邊,我也會豪不猶豫選擇擁抱大海。即使天空不是湛藍,但是駐足在那兒,看著浪花拍打、看著潮水起落,突然更加感謝環島工作帶給我一些忙裡偷閒的機會;工作反思,晚一點應該會寫寫(吧)。

走過西子灣讓我想起升大學時在中山財管和師大美術間做抉擇的時候,也是曾經疑惑徬徨,不過值得慶幸得是,到現在我依然沒有後悔選擇屬於我的這一條路;上一次可以坐著機車環遊高雄那是在克里斯彥大學的時候,好多年前的事了;高雄依然晴朗,不如台北的濛濛雨天,我很喜歡。

回程在高鐵上,iPod放到Santa Monica,那是把我矇住眼睛走過大街小巷,附中高一時慶生時大家為我播放的歌,回憶和旋律,都還是那麼溫柔。

就算忙碌,有著好朋友們在忙碌過後等著一起相聚,和兒時玩伴宵夜、和高中大學同學晚餐、到小芳子家看爆笑影片、和小阿姨唱KTV、和同學上陽明山賞花、淡水姐姐帶我賞櫻花,這些開心的片段,比品嚐到好吃不得了的栗子千層蛋糕,更加幸福。

March 08, 2009

An interview with a photographer

Last week Joanna asked me to go to an interview with the photographer, he is Shen Chao-Liang. The artist chose COZY which is my favorite coffee shop in Shida. We three had a good time there for almost 2 hours and Shen was so kind to share lots of his ideas and inspirations for his photography with us. I feel so lucky to be there and have such a amazing and unforgettable experience. To see artists and talk to them about their art works face to face is a rare chance, so I treasure our time so much.

I’m trying to make a summary about what we talked about last night:

Shen’s photography is separated to in different series such as Happy Landing, Yulan Maglonia flowers, Nan-fang-ao and Fish market. The reason why he chose these topics is that he wants to reflect our culture and talk deeply about the stories of our society in Taiwan. In one hand, he wants to make better understanding of local daily life to Taiwanese people. In the other hand, he took so many photos of people's smiles, work, and face to make the moment last. And what’s most important of all, he is touched by his own works and he wants more people to be touched through his art. Therefore, he continues that calling and it seems that he will not stop in the future.


He said, beautiful pictures would not always reflect our time, but the pictures which truely reflect our time could be beautiful.

Thanks Jo invited me to the interview. Honestly, I'm not sure about what I translated is correct and complete. But I've tried by best :)

Bright Lights DKNY


The very beginning black one is my favorite of this season. I think overall the back colors' higher lightness could be better for the clothings in Spring which are oftenly obvious bright. Though I do not like too much as some earlier season, it has a whole new way to show their fashion style on the website. Trying to make innovation and creativity are crucial parts for fashion designers. I think the reason why I never feel dissapointed with DKNY fashion design is that they always improve themselves and to be as a fashion creators.